Thursday, November 10, 2005

Last Sunday morning, the sunshine felt like rain.

Week before, they all seemed the same.

With the help of God and true friends, I come to realize

I still had two strong legs, and even wings to fly.

Oh I, ain't wastin time no more

'Cause time goes by like hurricanes, and faster things.

Lord, lord Miss Sally, why all your cryin'?

Been around here three long days, you're lookin' like you're dyin'.

Just step yourself outside, and look up at the stars above

Go on downtown baby, find somebody to love.

Meanwhile I ain't wastin' time no more

'Cause time goes by like pouring rain, and much faster things.

You don't need no gypsy to tell you why

You can't let one precious day slip by.

Look inside yourself, and if you don't see what you want,

Maybe sometimes then you don't,

But leave your mind alone and just get high.

Well by and by, way after many years have gone,

And all the war freaks die off, leavin' us alone.

We'll raise our children in the peaceful way we can,

It's up to you and me brother

To try and try again.

Well, hear us now, we ain't wastin' time no more

'Cause time goes by like hurricanes

Runnin' after subway trains

Don't forget the pouring rain.

Ain't Wastin Time No More, The Allman Brothers

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I can't believe it's November....another year wrapping up.

I've been thinking a lot about what's transpired in the past year and it's a bit mind-blowing.

Ran like a maniac all over the US (NY, NJ, NV, CA, CT, ME, PA, OR, MD) and Latin America (Argentina) but really didn't get anywhere.

Went on multiple interviews, got job offers, but didn't accept them.

Worked like a maniac inbetween, and was somehow able to launch a bunch of new networks and get the company through three hurricanes without losing my head.

Learned about psychics, DGI's, skin hunger and "widowbagos".

Dated and made every attempt to act "normal", but was too numb to feel a damn thing.

Broke down every so often, hit my lowest lows and felt like my life was pretty much over.

Met a ton of people, some of whom I now consider to be my good friends - and realized that I wouldn't have met any of them if Rich hadn't died.

And just when I thought that I had this major mental issue with the concept of love? BAM,

I meet the most incredible man on this planet- and get this, he's a widower who "gets it". I fall in love.

Pretty wild, isn't it?

It's good to be where I'm at today...a different and somewhat unique vantage point.

I still have a long way to go, but I'm starting to realize that I'll be able to pull even more of my life together in 2006. Do things a bit differently. Get back to the things that I enjoy the most.

Take advantage of the lessons that I've learned. Enjoy what Rich has given me - a beautiful daughter, wonderful memories, and the ability to appreciate the things that matter most.

It's a good feeling. Light at the end of the tunnel and all that.

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